Cleaning Up Our Own Messes - Starting over @ 37! Oh my!

I have made such a mess of my life. I just want to start over fresh, but there isn't any way to do that, these days. Everyone wants to run background checks, credit checks, urine checks, etc. Now everything isn't against me, here, but enough is. I regret the life altering errors that I made, in the past. I have taken steps to repair and mend myself amd my relationships. I left home to start over where no one knew me and I knew no one. You are the people you associate with! So I got away from all the things I felt were "holding me back" That is rather laughable, now. I held myself back. I see everything so much more clearly, now. There were outside forces that happened, here and there. Maybe fate is real... to a point. You know, like we all have a path to wallk. It is all or own, but we do have freewill, so, sometimes, we wander. It may not always be off the path, though I am sure it is most often that we wander off in another direction. Sometimes, we run ahead and miss things and sometimes, we go back and revisit significant places or people. Think about it. I have to run to the store, but I just thought of this and there is so much to consider. I'm going to think on it and I will have more to say, later.